Stay low. Soft, dark,
and dreamless, far beneath my nightmares and loneliness.
Lily, I cannot live with the thought that I will never be able to
see you again. I can still see your eyes, greener than the trees, and they're
haunting me day and night
I hate me, for breathing
without you. I don't want to feel anymore for you.
I'm dying inside because I lost you, Lily. I don't want to keep
feeling my love for you, but it still burns inside of me and I can't stop
loving you.
Grieving for you, I'm
not grieving for you. Nothing real love can't undo, and though I may have lost
my way, all paths lead straight to you.
I may have been a part of something that you didn't believe in
Lily, but everything I've done since I went against the old ways I've done for
you, my love. Everything that I do to protect your son isn't just for his
protection; I do it to honor your memory.
Halo, blinding wall
between us. Melt away and leave us alone again.
James may have loved you and you may have loved him, Lily, but
nothing would have stopped me from loving you. I wish that barrier that James
caused could have gone away and left us alone, but alas, things did not work
out in my favor. Perhaps it was for the best.
The humming haunted
somewhere out there. I believe our love can see us through in death.
I can still the soft, sweet sound of your voice speaking to me,
Lily. Even though I know you're gone, it's still haunting me, tearing at my
heart constantly. Your death did not stop my love for you; in fact, it
heightened, making me love you even more.
You're not alone, no
matter what they told you, you're not alone. I'll be right beside you
forevermore.
Even though you're dead, Lily, remember that while James will be beside
you always, I will be too. He may have loved you, but not in the way I do; my
love is enough to drive someone insane by letting it take over them.
And as we lay in silent
bliss, I know you remember me.
When I found your body lying there, not moving, I lost myself
completely. I continually blamed myself for causing your death. I held your
body in my hands and I knew, somehow, that you realized that I had changed. I
could feel it in my heart that you knew I had regretted the old ways and that I
was truly sorry for the life I once led.
I long to be like you,
lie cold in the ground like you. There's room inside for two and I'm not
grieving for you, I'm coming for you.
I wish to be dead as well, Lily! I feel that is the only way I can
feel any sort of relief from the pain caused by your death. I want you to
realize the love I have for you. I promise you, Lily, I will always love you.
Always.
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